I won’t ask by Anonymous Soul

I want to be in love 

But I wont ask for you to love me 

I like it when you show that you care 

Even if its hidden behind desire to touch another person 

At least its my heat you seek in this moment 

>> I just don’t think it's driven by love it's innately driven by convenience, pleasure, or desire—and i'm accessible and provide immediate gratification

  >>but he's loving it's tender but also it's not clear if that is love or just what you need to do to get what you want: comfort, warmth, another to hold, sex

I won’t ask for you to love me. 

That would be probably the saddest thing I could do.

Its the way it can be derived from the nature of the code: 

>> stay longer

> why? 

>> spend more time together

> why? 

me: to experience you and your thoughts intimately 

you: ?????

>>>> outcome certainties: high desire, sex, condomless, cum injection, reflective conversation, uncertainty in the air, dysfunction, lack of thought telling (me) 

>> come over to game night

> yes! 

>> meet my friends

>>>> outcome certainties: met friends (couples), brought cookies, he bought pizza, his mom gave me champagne, played hide and seek, held hands during the movie, slept with me in the guest bed, came in me

> who am I to you? 

>> what? 

> what do I mean to you?

Of course I cant say this of course time tells but also what do I mean to you? It would help to know your feelings are quite shallow in the scheme of development, and the predictions u have for whether or not its possible to dive and feel more, or if you think you’ll just enjoy the waves at the surface, the wrestling with my movements if that’s what you like. 

I need to know the limits of your love so I can be prepared. 

You want to be with me sometimes at least I know this

but it could not particularly have anything to do with me this need for satisfaction.

it could be me 

disregarding the mutuality? Is there any? Do you think so? 

Did you cum in me because you want to marry me? 

No 

You once said you would just get up and leave 

if I said I wouldn’t have sex unless you marry me first

I don’t think its that unreasonable

but it’s only a joke. 

I want you to have a desire to explore me

I want you to crave me 

I want you to miss me 

I want you to value my existence

But I won’t ask. For who am I to teach such a thing— love?